Is there a greater Love?

It is so easy as a Women to struggle with love.

We want to be loved. We want to be seen as beautiful and desired by a man. We want the love story. We want to have those emotions we see all over advertisement and in movies. We spend so much time wondering where the 'one' is and who the 'one' is or if he even exists.

We desire all these things and so often we put so much face value in them. We make decisions based on the person we think we are going to be with and ultimately search our hearts daily to find them or at times even to be good enough for them.

What's crazy to me is how ridiculous all this sounds. We want the greatest love story and Jesus is sitting patiently waiting for us to come to him. He's asking us to spend time with him. He is desiring us. He's pursuing us. And if that wasn't enough - he died for us. He calls me near to him and he reminds me of his feelings for me that are greater then any earthly love.

"You are altogether beautiful my darling,

beautiful in every way." Song of Songs 4:7

Isn't that what every women wants to hear? Is there a greater love then this?

No, I will not be in want.

"Twenty Three" by Enter the Worship Circle

I will not fear.

You are with me.

I will not fear.

You comfort me.

I will not fear. 

Everything on this earth is so meaningless. I spend days and days analyzing thoughts and feelings - only to fall on my knees in reverence to our holy Father. He is able to rescue the distraught, lonely, brokenhearted and give them a new song. He is able to save. He is able to break me and remake me.

I will not be in want.

You are not alone.

I am amazed by you.  In the midst of my loneliness, you are able to remind me of the friendships this to still have. You are able to remind me of those bonds that far outlast any heartache.  You have provided me opportunities to see 5 people within the next week. Beat that Satan. Whisper in my ear and say I am alone again.  But I won't be able to hear you because I will be sitting at the feat of my Savior as he says, "You are beautiful. You are lovely. You are mine."

Take it in Now. Eat and Repeat

This is how I see myself today. As an apostle of the Lord crying out, “Show me how to increase my faith!”

Questions come to my mind continually. I never seem to be without at least 5 questions on a daily basis. I don’t know if enough of the holy spirit in me will ever make that go away completely. But I do know that, I will always have questions. Life is confusing and at times we just don’t understand why things don’t work. We don’t understand why. We just can’t rationalize it or understand in our small minds what the point is.

The more questions I have the more I realize just how little I know. But does God call me to know everything? Is that apart of his will - with promises to speak in a audible voice with clear descriptions.

No, no. No.

But he says “increase your faith!” increase. INCREASE! Believe me. Trust me. Follow me. Surrender your life to me. Surrender your day to me. Surrender your questions.

I may never know what lies ahead in my future. I know that for sure nothing is certain. My only certainty is that through every turmoil and hard time. Christ the King of kings. Christ the Lord of Lords. Christ creator - is with me. 

He is with me. He is with me.

Repeat.

He is with me.

Repeat.

He is with me.

Verses:
* Luke 17:5-10